My apologies to him :)

God, here I just wanted to express what is in my heart. Maybe I could just write this in writing. I want to apologize to someone who has hurt me: (I'm sorry I have hurt you, lied to, and even hit you. Actually I dont want to do that to you but I like the outside of my consciousness. You know, two years we were together I love you. I really dont want to lose you.
After we got married why we are further away? We are increasingly different from us even more hated each other. I'm very aware of it but myself cannot do anything.
God give me a way out, I should do? I dont want to continue to get stuck in a never-ending problem of this. I still want to be with, I wish we can still be the same way again. I want to continue this household with him. I dont want him to leave me without responsibility.
He once said if I was normal, she also wanted to continue with me. But can you be patient? I'm definitely back to normal. Hopefully you are still holding you talk it.
God, i ask only provided a way out. I want to live my life instead of living in such an issue.
My prayer this day forward, I wish I could go back to normal and he was like two years ago.

Add caption

forgive me Muhammad Mukhlas :(